hurt

knowing the fact that he lied hurts a lot..
but i choose to be silent..
asking will cause nothing but troubles..
troubles such as not getting any answers or leads to a fight..
so im juz gonna shut my mouth n act like nothing..
swallow all the pain i feel..
n let tears roll down on my face..

SO LONG..

lamanya xbuka blog ni..
bila baca blk smua, tkejut gak ngn diri sdiri..
from this now on, i'll start writing this blog again..

linda beba naftaly

facebook punca segalanya..aku rasa dah xterkata smuanya..BEBA..nama prmpn yg cukup menyakitkan..aku xmampu ckp lbh...xmampu luahkan sedikit pn rs skt yg ada..bgtau taufik,dia bela BEBA..post kt fb,hny nk luahkan,abg dia plk bela BEBA..yela,dorg fren..BEBA da bt abg dia suka kot..aku plk,msti dilihat spt org yg merimaskan..fokus study?abg dia suruh fokus stdy..we r in final now..ish..ntahla...sglanya bcelaru..

YA ALLAH...

sungguh xtertahan dugaanMu...

aku mohon Kau hentikanlah...

sakit ini xmampu kutanggung...

percayalah...

aku benar2 xmampu utk tanggungnya lg..

aku buntu selesaikan ini..

aku da cuba smuanya..

tmsuk bsabar n merelakan..

tp aku xmampu..

spt merelakan suami menduakn..

apa lg yg mahu Kau uji?

apa silapnya aku dlm mhadapi ujianMu?

hentikanlah.

should i??

should i apply for SKP or not..?
i've once applied for it but i didn't manage to finish it...
hm...
if only sir kam want me to be his student of SKP again..
but i think i won't..
or i should work at Servay again??
as a promoter??
hmm..

went for interview...

emma, lenna, zira n me went for interview the branch manager of CIMB Bank this morning.. a lil bit nervous but the manager was sporting n cool...but actually he's lenna's father..huhuhu...neway, it went smooth n nice..we manage to ask n speak in English confidently with outsider..guess we're not that bad.. after that, we made some observation in the banking hall..some limitation occured but its ok..we asked them first before doing the observation..what i can say is only the security n the woman who gave us the permission are friendly..thats all..

hungry

its 12pm n i haven't had my lunch yet..
waiting for him needs a lot of patient..
he's still sleeping and doesn't want to wake up..
hm..
guys..
please..
wake up early in the morning..
this is to train u to be a good father one day..
what happen to ur job if u wake up late?
u can't feed ur family then..
so...TAUFIK....WAKE UP!!!
(if only he can hear my voice inside my head)
ergh...!!!

dad is coming to town!!!

it's been almost 2 years since my dad left Sabah..
he will be here in July 9-11, 2010..
i hope this time he will surely come here..
the reason why he suddenly come here is because he will be having a gathering with the members of his website, 'Jommelayu'....
before this, the gathering had already held in Johor, Kelantan, Penang..
this is the purpose of meeting the members face to face instead of connecting in the Jommelayu only..
so far, my dad had meet with a lots of people from different state (of course) with different types of jobs and their relationship has become closer..
who knows that Sabah has a lot of extraordinary people too..
recently, my dad has two new websites under Jommelayu which are 'Jommelayuniaga' and 'nurekhsanbudi'..
i was hoping that my friends will join my dad's website..
for us in Sabah, we can join the group of 'Jommelayu North Borneo' which can be joined by non-Malay too..
and if anyone interested in the gathering, u can ask me..
i invite all of u to come to the gathering for free and it open to non-members too..